My Sorrows

He started showing some kind of care recently, and talking to him, talking about my current insecurities relieves me for a while even though it always comes back in the end. I feel so dumb, so useless and my life seems to be so uninteresting when I hear about others’. It’s not like I really care about others, but finally, when I get close enough to some people, I just can’t take it when they go all like "you’re not dumb, you’re not ugly, you’re not whatever". Everybody lies and when it comes from him, then it’s even worse. He won’t ever tell me the truth about anything. And it’s all my fault if my life sucks. Hell, I should just jump out of a window… Would solve so many problems !!! I keep bugging him with insecurities but he seems ok to endure it for now, I hope it will last because that feeling isn’t really likely to disappear… and… saying how stupid I am to him doesn’t relieve me but at least, it bugs a liar so…