My Sorrows

Today is the day when you broke my heart. I thought I would have fell out of love with you before something like this would happen. I still love you though. I am just sad. Sad because you said you don’t have emotions at all, so that means I loved a robot and got close to a robot, which (because… I am not using whom to designate you) lied to me and faked emotions and care and some kind of love. I hardly know what to do or say. I am not leaving because my revenge will be better that way. I will be able to annoy you and give you guilt trips, while if I leave… it won’t change anything for you, or will even be better for you. And I refuse to provide you with this pleasure.

I am just broken-hearted because of that… It’s… Well, I have no way to describe it. It’s like the person I love died without dying. It’s worse than if you had died. Because… you were replaced by someone who is not the Marcin I knew. You are not even Marcin at all. 

Yet, now I can hardly imagine talking to you.

I don’t know what to do. I am helpless and hopeless and I wish I had never met you… It would have made things easier. Maybe I wouldn’t have suffered from depression… or maybe I would have and I would be dead. But the only thing that can be done about past is to look back on things and regret them. Be they good or bad.