My Sorrows

I am forbidden to text and email now, because Mister Marcinek feels smothered by me! Yet he texts me… And when I say I can’t give him replies because I am not allowed, he says I am allowed to text on a normal basis since we talk daily (which implies I do not need to text and email). But how the hell am I supposed to decide on the days when I can text and the days when I can’t? How the hell am I supposed to decide on what I should say and what I shouldn’t say? He almost got mad when I implied I wouldn’t text or email anymore.

And the day after, what does he do? He texts me obviously. It’s a good thing because it means he was thinking of me in the middle of the night, maybe he was testing me too. So I didn’t reply, and when I got to talk to him, I said that I couldn’t reply because I am not allowed. And he said : "I never said you couldn’t text me at all >.>". But well, I won’t reply anyway, and he will probably send a silly text to force me to reply… Or, he won’t text ever again. So he will probably forget my birthday and refuse to do anything special, like calling me, or webcamming me and if I refuse to show up that day… He will just do as if if I had wanted him to wish me my birthday, I should have showed up. I won’t tell him when it is again, and… if he forgets, then… future will tell what will happen.

It’s just my birthday after all, nothing important! 

But I love him after all, so I am dealing with that.